the reason is you

[I liked this song....]

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

google onsite interview..

hmmm.... after a long time in depression.. am ready to post something here..
now i have to change my mind once again on google as 'after all google' from 'the great google'.. it does happens when things are going not well for you.

after a week after my phone interview i received phone call from google girl asking me for dates.. :D
ha ha ha... she asked me dates for the onsite interviews. :)

i asked her to call me next day.. just giving the impression that i am a busy person.. :P
i gave couple of dates.. and she confirmed with the interviewers and asked me to come on thursday..

then I started preparing for the interveiw. i searched for all the help on the net but i found lot of useless stuff..

- on the interview day..

it was raining very heavily.. and my interviews were scheduled in the evening. i was waiting for the rain to stop but it didn't.
i started dressing up.. i was thinking of wearing formals (as we do in campus interviews :D).. but it was raining and anyhow i am going to get wet.. so i weared t-shirt, jeans.. with rain jacket on..
i reached google office with wet dress.. i could cover only my shirt with jacket.. i reached one hour early there.. i called up that girl and she said 'u came soo early' and asked me to wait..

i waited for an hour by looking at the different screens in the hall playing google workplace videos and news..

after one hour that girl came out and took me into a cabin.. she gave me NDA form and i signed on it..

now, the interviewer came into the cabin..
we started with mutual introductions...

after everything went very well in the phone interview, i was thinking same kind of question will be asked in the onsite interview as well... but quite contradictorily they asked someother thing, which i am scared about.. "permutations and combinations'
he asked me a question..
i didn't have any clue about the solution.. i said ask me another question..
this time little easy question and i was able to answer that after working for about half an hour.. :D
then he said we are done..

he left the cabin and another interviewer came in..
this time no different story...
again the bloody permutations and combinations subject..
he asked me a question...
i tried for sometime and i said i don't have any clue..
he asked me another question..
and this time technical one..
so.. i didn't have any problem and i wrote the algorithm quickly...
then he started to ask me to trace it with different cases..
and everything was perfect...

he was o.k with the solution..

then he said.. 'o.k giribabu, i am done with my questions'
again only two questions...

now i was searching for that hr girl who took me inside.. i asked another girl nearby and she said i dont know..
i called her on mobile and she came. asked me about the interview and how it went..
i said 'it was good'...
we both came to the reception and she said 'we will get back to you withinn a week' and left.

now the same story.... of course i already knew the outcome..
after one week i got the email.. '"we regret to inform you... "

I've lost

I've lost a girl who never loved me honestly..
But I can't stay in the world where she is not there for me..

I've lost a family which never trusted me..
but without their support I wouldn't be here..

I've lost a job which I didn't deserve..
I don't have the words to explain the pain here..

After all I've lost everything.. I don't see any reason for crying..

After all My dreamz shattered.. I don't see any reason for living..

Yes, Its true.. I am some one.. who really has no one..

google phone Interview..

After long long.. really long time..  

At last I got call from Google asking for a date for phone interview. 

I am just putting how it went and my feelings. Overall it was a great experience to me. 

In my engineering days,  I was always thinking about getting into deshaw. At the start of my fourth year I am into deshaw. After that, then I started thinking about "what next" ? 

hmmm...  here comes 'Google' into my mind. 

ha ha, do you think I am lying?  :D

Yes, I am.  To be honest, before google, I was thinking about my sweet 'Moon'.  I didn't know where she is, It was almost one and half year i talked to her.  If I tell everything about that branch of my life here, then this blog wont be enough and I dont have that many words to put :D .. Just leaving it... 

After some time… I started googling 'Google'.  As everyone knows, Its not easy to get into google.  But there is some hope (infact very little)  back in my mind. As a student i tried to apply for Google. After a week I got reply  kind of like this “We regret to inform you.. “.  I was not all disappointed because I already knew whats gonna happen.  

After few months, I added my internship at deshaw to the resume hoping that it will help.

This time, I thought let me take different way. I started searching for a google employee who can refer me. Somehow I got an HR manager contact and after few phone and chatting conversations I asked him to refer me.  He did all he can do, and I was waiting for reply.  Still the same reply “ We regret to inform you… “.  That HR manager asked me to give a try after getting couple of years of experience.

tbc---

My Way To De Shaw

If I remember correct it's on 10th August 2001 morning, when I first entered the Veda Institute(ofcourse to attend a class) I was searching for the classroom. Finally I asked the Security guard that 'where is 2nd year cse class'' , at the same time One person was walking beside me. He was neatly dressed, carrying an executive bag in his hand. The security guard said that " U Just follow him".
I thanked the Sec guard and i continued to walk behind that person. I entered the class and I saw that person's face. He was very young, and he was teaching very well and I asked my friend that 'What's his name'. My friend also dont know but told me that 'He got 8th rank in ECET this year'. At last I found his name as 'RAZA'.
I was really impressed with his teaching and talent. After that i decided "'I should also get under 10 rank". After one month I heard that he got Engg seat in Osmania University. Same thing, "I should also get into OU".
After spending two years in Veda, finally I wrote ecet exam.As expected i got 9th rank but i was not so happy after getting <10 rank because the OU seat is doubtful(only 1 seat is available).The luck is with me i got into OU with laots of ambitions.
I spent my first year of Engg with ease i.e didnt need to study hard. I entered second year by that time Raza got placed in De Shaw. ---------I thought "I should also get into De Shaw".
He left the college and joined company, and I entered third year. At the end of the year I realized that 'I didnt study for this whole year then how can i get placed'. I told myself 'Be Confident'. Then after I was preparing seriously.Preparaiton lasted for one month.
Finally our placements started. I started with Infosys but I couldnt clear written. After this exam my morale was down and Once again I told myself 'Be Confident'. After that I attempted Wipro, I got it. Next comes the De Shaw. Finally I got into De Shaw.

At the beginning You might have noticed the words of security guard " u just follow him".
I just followed the way of Raza to get into De Shaw.